Give up or not?

Suddenly, i felt like giving up.
You know, things have not been going the ways I've expected.
Some I've expected it long ago, but some to me are really stupid and what I've not expected.
Why have you made me feel like you act the way exactly like her?
Why must you repeat the same things over and over again, I've always been enduring u, thinking that i should have endure since u are one of my good friend.
But things have not change and it seems to got worse.
I don't even know if you are saying the truth or lying to me at times.
I've apologized, and you still got a little bit unhappy.
I've told u i didn't do or say it, but you are still angry.
You apologize to me and want to be friends again when you want help from me or when you need a company.
I've realised that i haven't been really myself when spending time with you for a day.
I don't even know what you are thinking at times?
How to be truly good friends?
Can you pls tell me?
I really want to be good friends with you, but sometimes it made me want to leave you for once...
Are you lying or telling truth?
I've been thinking about this for a long long time.
And it really didn't make sense that it was an accident.
I've always thought that you won't lie, but this doesn't really make sense.
If you've told me the truth, I would only nag about it and be unhappy for a while only, even if you are in a wrong. Because u are my friend, not enemy or sinner.
But if you are lying, then what can i say?
Are you like others wearing a mask, or are you showing me your true self?
I trust you, so i told u most of my things or secrets, i don't expect you to tell me most of yours, i only hope that you just won't lie to me.
What can i say?
Will you tell me the truth one day?
I'm really really tired of all this.
It was this way before exams, and I've tried to distract myself or even tried to seek help, but it seems no use.
Thought that is was only stress because of the exams, but it didn't seems so.
Such things like that have been happening again after exams.
I want to really relax and enjoy my days after the most important exams in sec 1.
But it didn't seem so, somethings have been missing from it,
energy and heart.
I don't have the energy to relax and enjoy, cause I've been using them up to endure you all.
I don't have the heart to want to enjoy because all these stupid crap has been making me feel like giving up as it seems that it won't be good.
What can i do?
Will it stop once and for all?
Some ppl, please be mature...